here it goes....

 

Playing My Role

I'm always afraid

and always confused

yelled at degraded

forever abused

never worth much

not a penny or cent

you say that you're sorry

it's not what you meant

So what do you mean?

Do you mean what you say

what have I done wrong?

Are the dues I must pay?

I'm always pushing

paying my toll

but I'm sick of smiling

and playing this role

I'm sick of the smiles

the laughs are just fake

why am I still acting

what more could you take

You've taken all I had

my strength and my pride

sometimes I wish

I could've just died

maybe then I'd find

an end to this test

maybe then I'd find

it's finally time to rest

What do I want?

I never knew I was looking
till it caught me by suprise
I didn't know I couldn't see it
till you looked into my eyes
you penetrate my soul
like a window to my heart
 you're constant in my thoughts
near or far apart
I thought if I ignored it
it would go away
but your moon shines as brightly
as did the sun of day
and I don't know how to hide
or make it go away
it's the way my heart beats
and my breath is stolen
it's the way my mind wanders
tears leave my eyes swollen
it's how I 'm scared to see
 everything I've wanted
it's how my heart and mind
are so profusely taunted
I don't know what the answers are
so I'm looking deep inside
and if I can't find them
at least I know I tried

 

 

 

My Everything

the love in your eyes touches me

deep down in my soul

your touch it always weakens me

but also makes me whole

you're everything I dreamed of love

and all that it would be

you're every part of my best half

the one that set me free

you're the sun in my darkness

the rain when I'm dry

you shower me in innocence

and let me know just why

Every time I hold you close

I feel our hearts combine

and when I look in to your eyes

your soul, it touches mine

so I hope you know I love you

with all of my heart

and I give you all my life

each and every part

Kiss

A kiss so passionate

every breathe

you took me deeper

into the very soul

that I am.

Every touch of your lips

opened a door

closer to my heart

than even I

have ever been

Almost afraid

to open my eyes

that I might see

it's not me

who feels so glorious

open, free...

Beyond a point

of total vulnerability

yet totally secure, safe

and incredibly loved

Wanting to become

always one

that we were

for this Kiss

My Empty Bed

I gave you my love

gave you my life

made you my lover

became your wife

I'd hold you close

when you're feeling scared

I told you I love you

I showed you I cared

but I guess it should be

some kind of warning

when you're not waking up

next to me ....

in the morning

Did I make a wrong turn

or take the wrong flight?

why am I alone

in our bed every night?

Wondering just what

I've done wrong

why have I been here

waiting so long

I guess it should be

some kind of warning

when you're not waking up

next to me ...

In the morning

Every time I see you

love fills my heart

so tell me what it is

that's tearing us apart

is there someone else?

Is there someone new?

Tell me if there's anything

I can do

Cause I guess it should be

some kind of warning

when you're not waking up

next to me...

In the morning

Sinful Pleasures

I enjoy too much

pleasure from this pain

I guess that's why

you might think I'm insane

but it feels so good

Why's it a sin?

to touch your hot body

to clench you within

to pull you near

with your face in mine

to run my hands

slowly down your spine

to grab you firmly

by your waist

to enjoy fully

your smell, your taste

to reach inside

and pull it out

the thing that we

are all about

instinct draws us in

it's clear

to desire the things

we're taught to fear

someday I'm hoping

to find a place

where you can be who you are

and still show your face

where there's no one ashamed

or judged for what they do

cause in reality the judgers

have probably done it too

and if you closed your eyes

or saw the truth and ran

it still doesn't change me

or the woman that I am

but I'm grateful my love

for all you helped me see

like the parts that were hidden

that you pulled out of me

and I have no regrets

that I

totally let go

and let what I feel

finally show!

No one knows

No one really knows

this pain it only grows

these feelings inside

I want them to hide

no one can really see

the hurt inside of me

to make it hide I'll lie

I have no alibi

the fear is hard to put away

the sun just starts another day

nothing changes

never will

the hurt and pain

is with me still

Is this a chain

to never end

I cry alone

without a friend

no one lasts, no one stays

into the evening

sun I gaze

so now it's the end

and no one's here

let this be

my last shedded tear

.................Street~Chalk

 

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